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I live behind reinforced walls
and a guard clad in armor of fear
for each door.
A fortress built from bricks of doubt and disappointment;
mortar mixed with the ashes from the pyre
on which I sacrificed myself
and remade myself
in the hopes that this incarnation
might be something someone could appreciate.
I grew in a garden of imperfection
in which I was the most imperfect;
no one ever said, "You aren't good enough."
But they did say,
"Boys don't like fat girls,
you'll never find a man if you don't lose weight."
I heard: "You are unlovable."
They said, "You'll never succeed
if you don't do your homework--"
nevermind that I had the highest grade in the class.
I heard: "You aren't good enough."
I burned those messages into my flesh
every time I looked at my reflection
and believed them.
Now, 30 years of rebirths later,
this incarnation still believes
she is unlovable,
and this incarnation still believes
she is a failure,
even when my child,
my precious baby girl,
takes my face in her hands and says
"Mama, you are perfect for me."
I will not build a pyre for my daughter
I will not encourage her to break herself
for any other person's satisfaction,
Because she is beautiful;
She is worthy;
She is loved and valued,
and she is perfect for me.
and a guard clad in armor of fear
for each door.
A fortress built from bricks of doubt and disappointment;
mortar mixed with the ashes from the pyre
on which I sacrificed myself
and remade myself
in the hopes that this incarnation
might be something someone could appreciate.
I grew in a garden of imperfection
in which I was the most imperfect;
no one ever said, "You aren't good enough."
But they did say,
"Boys don't like fat girls,
you'll never find a man if you don't lose weight."
I heard: "You are unlovable."
They said, "You'll never succeed
if you don't do your homework--"
nevermind that I had the highest grade in the class.
I heard: "You aren't good enough."
I burned those messages into my flesh
every time I looked at my reflection
and believed them.
Now, 30 years of rebirths later,
this incarnation still believes
she is unlovable,
and this incarnation still believes
she is a failure,
even when my child,
my precious baby girl,
takes my face in her hands and says
"Mama, you are perfect for me."
I will not build a pyre for my daughter
I will not encourage her to break herself
for any other person's satisfaction,
Because she is beautiful;
She is worthy;
She is loved and valued,
and she is perfect for me.
Literature
A History of Imaginarium
When we were young, we believed. In myths, in legends, in stories beyond the wildest imagination of the best story teller in the world. Tomorrow always held surprises, new stories, and new worlds for our imaginations to explore. Everything began with 'Once upon a time' and ended with 'Happily ever after.' We lived in a land where we all owned pet tyrannosaurus rexes, maybe a few dragons, a sword that rivaled Excalibur and faeries and pixies, who just happened to make great playmates. Fae food for some reason always seemed to be so much better than your average meal, and who needs an adult to talk sense to, when you could have a talking lion?
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hair hot,rough against your face
the slender velodromes
,rushing down your cheeks (emotional
jetlag stiff,coineyed awake lonely
phones, three doors down, wretched december three ams
we lay beneath the skyline stretched
with winter veins :
breath ,and feel dusk sweep through your organs ,drown your soul
she always had heavy eyelids
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Numbers
1600
The number of calories
Consumed today
131
What the scale says
That I currently weigh
100
A perfect flute score
Earning a hug from my father
3
The number of hugs last year
With which he could bother
6
The number of years
It's been since he died
82
The lowest grade on my report card
I cried
101
The number of non-accidental scars
Currently on my body
21
The number of roles
Which I've embodied
5
Written on the tag of jeans
I could not force myself to buy
4
The age when
I told my first lie
12.5
The number of crew hours
I have left at the least
150
The amount of money I need
For Beauty and the Beast
7
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So much truth in this. The mother-daughter circles you draw are lovely.